Tis Joy

Tis joy to see a newborn face
To hold a hand
To wipe tears away

Tis joy to smell a dew filled day
To gasp in air
To move in grace

Tis joy to love
To go through pain
To set aside emotions rang

Striding and striding, I run towards the dawn
The sun has come up, a new day has begun.

Forgiving and forgetting, the pain washed away
Wounds have been healed, I steady in place.

Dreams of the past, Dreams yet to come
My heart is awakened, I will now move on.

Tis Joy

- Christyna Monique

10/25/09

MI VIDA

My mind starts to wander into the dark depths of the abyss
I have a deep desire to return but continue on
Like a snake after its prey...hiss...hiss
Why now after so long?

The images strike,the words pierce the heart
Poison slowly seeps into the pores
Pain and agony join together,becoming an art
I want the waters of peace to overflow the shores

Brother Love and Sister Joy have decided to reunite at last!
Like a dove descending from the picturesque blue
Like a nostalgic memory from the past
Like a hungry child eating honey dew
The time has come.... at last

Mi Vida

Grace and Peace

Christina Monique

06.04.2007

Timeline of my Life Locations....Its been a crazy 23 yrs...

May 20 1986- Born in Bellflower, CA. (Kaiser Permanente)
86-89-Covina,CA.
89-2001-Montclair,CA.
2001-2005-West Covina,CA,
2005-2006-Maui,HI
4 MONTHS IN 06- Las Vegas,NV
2 MONTHS IN 06- Nanning,China
*Vegas 2 wks*
2 MONTHS IN 06- Ontario,CA
6 MONTHS IN 06/07- Azusa,CA
3 MONTHS IN 07- West Covina,CA
1 MONTH IN 07- Calcutta,India
*CA 1 wk*
Rest of 2007-2008- Phoenix,AZ
NOV 08-AUG 3- West Covina,CA
AUG 3-28- Maricopa,AZ
AUG 31-CURRENT- Las Vegas,NV

*This is merely a guesstimation and not completely accurate. This also does not contain the list of jobs in all locations ranging from offices,mall jobs,resorts & home care*

My life thus far with BILLIE BOO

Every morning I wake up to a timid voice that says..." Wohooo , wake up ". This is always followed by a soft knock on the door and a small jingle of the handle. Dialogue with Billie moments that must be shared are as followed: " You are always on that computer...you need a boyfriend " " You have tall friends who should put up our dishes in the cupboards " " Can u open this with ur little iron fingers?? " Ur good at cleaning....it must be in your blood " Your friend Jorge has an amazing facial structure " " You like Mexican boys dont you? " The list can go on & on. My life with an 86 year old woman never has its dull moments. Tip #1- Follow through with the plans you tell someone...if they change..let them know. Example A- "Ill be back at 5 Billie before I go to The Gathering". Well I happened to be running a little late that day...so there was a no show at the house when she was expecting me. While we were all at my friend Mikeys home I was informed that my mum needed me to reach her ASAP. I hurriedly dialed her number thinking the worse had happened. Then next sentence I hear makes me laugh & feel horrible all at the same time. " Christina...Since you didnt show up at 5, Billie called the Police who are at my door & all the Hospitals thinking you had been in an accident" There goes my heart to my stomach. After 30 minutes of mind blowing phone calls, I realized I wasnt my free butterfly self anymore. I was responsible & accountable to someone. Something I hadnt had for a long time. It was definately a life lesson I had to learn in a very crazy way. Now I know though.... CALL TO CONFIRM...ALWAYZ...haha.

Bride Wars,Bangs & Bowling

My day today was quite delightful in numerous ways. Lets start with the fact that I didn't even wake up until 2( I didn't get hm til 4am, so...) haha. Then being inspired by Kate Hudson from watching bride wars,I decided to do the unthinkable. I CUT MY BANGS!That's right, my side swept bangs are no more. These puppies are og,straight across, over my eyebrows bangs. Well I ended up getting picked up only 30 min. later to head over to a friends house. I was welcomed by laughter none the less as soon as I stepped in the car. Well I met a few new people, but want to mention 1 in particular. Her name was ALLIE, & I loved her bangs. So being the crazy person that I am I asked her if she could fix mine. After a few games of CRANIUM( I heart that game & rock @ green) she fixed them for me! Yah! I can breathe again. They still have some growing to do, but they are so much better. Needless to say I still wore a hat to go bowling. My bangs are a tad short. I don't think Ive ever been so happy to own a hat before. haha. Its the little things that count, the little things I hold most dear.P.S. Do not ever think about wearing heels that are 1 size too big for you to the bowling alley.haha.THE END

Freedom

It seems that sleep deprivation has thus far seemed to be my element for the kick off of 2009. My thoughts have begun to have overtaken me yet again. I recently came back from a retreat @ Forset Home with my college group ....The Gathering. Im going to share some highlights as well as revelations during my weekend stay there. First of all the theme was "SURRENDER", and prior to going I had no legitimate expectaions. I just knew without a shadow of a doubt that God was going to rock my world ; ). Its like this: If my heart was a hotel and I had 70 rooms , I would honestly have to say that God occupied 60 of those rooms & held the keys to them all as well. Yet 10 still remain. 10 rooms that are locked,boarded up, & sealed tight with nostalgic memories of the past. The air in those 10 rooms reek of hurt,anger,bitterness & pain. " WHERE THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD IS...THERE IS FREEDOM". We all surrender in different ways to God. Surrender is an act of obediece and it is better to be obedient than to sacrifice. When I surrender a sense of freedom overwhlems me because the burdens I had been carrying are now laid @ the cross. They are no longer in my possession & the worry starts to fade away. With that being said, I came to realize that my way of surrendering was through WORSHIP. Some pray,some read,some write.... I sing. Ive always known it was a passion,a gift, something to be used for Gods glory. But my way of surrendering??? I didnt fully realize until this past weekend. When I worship I feel free. I feel like all I have in me is given to the Lord during those times. I feel naked & vulnerable..... like there is nothing to hide behind. Like I cry out and his hand of mercy is there to heal me. I am weak & I need his love to free me. Sweet tokens I will treasure & always carry with me. Not only realizing more of those things I need to surrender, but in the process coming to find out more of who he has created for me to be....its a beautiful thing. Its FREEDOM.

Beautiful Bliss

I love how God can use all the parts in our lives that seem like ashes and turn them into beautiful pieces of art for his glory. This week has been a struggle for me in numerous ways with family,finances,school and the list can go on.I was reminded of Job and all the trials this man faced ,yet he praised God through them all.That really encouraged me, and I began to ponder different thoughts.There is this analogy I love that talks about a silversmith and his silver.You see a silversmith doesn’t know when to remove his silver from the fire until he sees his reflection in it.In the meanwhile he is holding it the whole time…..just waiting.I felt that way this week.Even in the fire,God was holding me the whole time just wanting to see more of his heart engrained within me.It is in those mountain tops that we see God ,but it is in the valleys that we grow.Refined by the fire.

Trials produce patience,perserverance,character……

Faith.Daniel and his boys had no idea that Jesus was going to be physically with them,but they were obedient even unto death in the fiery furnace.Jehovah-nissi(God is my banner,my defense).He was with them till the end and blessed them,not even one hair was burned.What fires have you not let God enter in your life this week?He wants to not only go through them with you but carry you out of them as well.How great is our God.Draw near to God and he will draw near to you.

Grace N Peace……

Christina Monique