Freedom

It seems that sleep deprivation has thus far seemed to be my element for the kick off of 2009. My thoughts have begun to have overtaken me yet again. I recently came back from a retreat @ Forset Home with my college group ....The Gathering. Im going to share some highlights as well as revelations during my weekend stay there. First of all the theme was "SURRENDER", and prior to going I had no legitimate expectaions. I just knew without a shadow of a doubt that God was going to rock my world ; ). Its like this: If my heart was a hotel and I had 70 rooms , I would honestly have to say that God occupied 60 of those rooms & held the keys to them all as well. Yet 10 still remain. 10 rooms that are locked,boarded up, & sealed tight with nostalgic memories of the past. The air in those 10 rooms reek of hurt,anger,bitterness & pain. " WHERE THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD IS...THERE IS FREEDOM". We all surrender in different ways to God. Surrender is an act of obediece and it is better to be obedient than to sacrifice. When I surrender a sense of freedom overwhlems me because the burdens I had been carrying are now laid @ the cross. They are no longer in my possession & the worry starts to fade away. With that being said, I came to realize that my way of surrendering was through WORSHIP. Some pray,some read,some write.... I sing. Ive always known it was a passion,a gift, something to be used for Gods glory. But my way of surrendering??? I didnt fully realize until this past weekend. When I worship I feel free. I feel like all I have in me is given to the Lord during those times. I feel naked & vulnerable..... like there is nothing to hide behind. Like I cry out and his hand of mercy is there to heal me. I am weak & I need his love to free me. Sweet tokens I will treasure & always carry with me. Not only realizing more of those things I need to surrender, but in the process coming to find out more of who he has created for me to be....its a beautiful thing. Its FREEDOM.